Two years....

Yesterday was the mark of my 400 entries. And today is the mark of the second last month of year 2008.

It has been two years plus one month since Nicolekiss first launched. I didn't realise how time has flown, so swiftly, unnoticeable almost.

And I am nearing a quarter of a century old. Splendid.


Yes, time and time again people don't fail to remind me of my age. It's as though they can't bear to see how I have spent most of my days traveling from places to places and, in their eyes, "wasting" my life away.

Personal opinion, that is a very subjective debatable topic. So they are saying that spending their entire life slaving away for a corporate that is not even their business is useful? Or earning millions when they don't even share their wealth with the less fortunate is a meaningful life?

What can a resume do for you at such a critical economy downturn? You can avoid that downsizing ordeal, but won't escape you from not getting your bonus this year or increment next year?

If you're lucky enough, you might even get a promotion, more business, job hop into a better career of higher pay.

Hey why not. It is a very subjective perspective. Who says one can't be happy spending his life away doing nothing? I earn enough every month to travel every now and then (yes i know my every now and then is damn frequent, sue me), pay my rental and food, and barely saving while investing in a new business. And though they are very skeptical people out there who won't have it any other way than to see a failure in me, so be it you know.

They might think they are above all, claiming that if they were to have life their way, they would be making it big. And then blame their incapability to break out of their commitment when no one has bound them down in the first place (what? did someone bind you to your chair with a chain and a gun to your temple threatening you not to seek for your better future? job? start a business? if you are as good as u have said, why not go start a business and make it succeed and prove to people who you claimed to have "force" you to your current situation, yes by 'people' I am referring to your parents) on my lack of enthusiasm in a full time career which would give me a what? 3k per month job that requires me to work 10 hours per day for 5-6 days a week and 14 days of holiday per year?

Thank you very much. I can achieve that very well without the need to stick to my desk 24/7 and while travelling and studying and working at the same time, Kap Khun Ka. And I don't care if one can save more when attached to a company, I don't need that. Because unlucky for me, I can never work for a company for a few good reasons.

I have always said: it's either I work long enough for my employer to fire me, or for me to fire my employer. When it's not them not able to tolerate me, it would be me unable to tolerate them and the scope of my job, or the time and nature at that. "We" just never get along, me and my full time force-to-do boring job that is. Ever.

And I really respect and envy people who can work in a company, climb the corporate ladder, despite all my complaints, there are undoubtedly a lot of benefits one can attain when working for a company. Company incentives, car, contribution, trips, entertainment fee, on company's expenses, etc. Many things you know. But too bad, that life is not for me, not meant to be and not fit to be. And as I view from the other side of the green land, I reminded myself that grass is not necessary greener on the other side.

Be happy with what you have, for you are fortunate enough to be living luxuriously, to be reading this entry is proof enough that you have the capability to own or gain access to modern technology. Feel blessed, and do not complain, do not compare (with others or with yourself), give a ringgit (or 10 baht) to the less fortunate who come up to you to seek your help on the street, for they need that ringgit for than you, even when they aren't really what they seem at times (fake beggars and all).

Feel blessed. Stop complaining. Love yourself, love others and love your parents. Start living.

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  1. century = 100 years,
    i think wadu mmeant was decade = 10 years

    =)

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  2. Definitely! Now is the time when you SHOULD be doing all of this. You don't want to get into your 30's (or beyond) and regret not even having tried it. A lot of people who opt for the safe route end up living off of your stories, I'd imagine, instead of trying things on their own. I was lucky enough to have done a lot of living abroad / traveling before I was 30. I still do a fair bit now but it is much harder to try to do that 'live abroad' thing. In any case I wish you all the luck in the world. Stumbled upon your blog some months ago and have been enjoying it. This post just hit a nerve I guess so I thought I'd come out of lurking!:)

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  3. Hey Nic,

    Well said, atleast you got a fan here who cant afford to travel that frequent but love to read your entry. Live life, live high!

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  4. my boss told me if you can stop complaining for 21days, u will eventually wont complain anymore...iu'm trying to hard to do it......

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  5. You're living your life as you'd love it to be, and reasonably as well as you're earning to keep your living.

    What else is there to say about that? With utmost respect, you sure made the world seem such a meaningful place to be :) Thanks for that!

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  6. Powerfull words and I think its so true. Life is so wonderful and for me , I have no complaints ( he..he...except one little things, i wish I can visit Bkk more often , like you do )

    All the best for you Nicole

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  7. dreameridiot2/11/08 6:08 PM

    I'm not exactly a person who cannot 'tahan' a full time job, but I kinda mind what kind of job it is. So, by some remote stretch, your post somewhat touched on my own situation, and in a way, made me smile. Thanks.

    May you continue to live life to the fullest!

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  8. THANK YOU ! THANK YOU!

    I LOVE YOUR LIFE, AND U HAD SHOWN THAT LIFE CAN BE AS FREE AS ONE DESIRES.

    GREAT WORK ! LIVING IS WORKING ACTUALLY. GREAT JOB.
    KEEP IT UP. WE LOVE U 300%!!!

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  9. Feel blessed. Stop complaining. Love yourself, love others and love your parents. Start living....

    Excellent quote..have put that on MSN window.

    Thanks!

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  10. To Mr Anonymous,

    I think Nicole is trying to say she is now a 'quarter years old'. Referring to her age not her blog entry....

    am i right?

    by the way, dun remind her of her age... women's secret...
    haa...

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  11. You've got some stones Nic! Grabbing life by the scruff of the neck and choking it for all its worth. I'm sure there's plenty of people out there who envy your life style and I do too.....a bit. okay lah more than a bit. but not everyone has the guts to say screw everything i'm living my life any damn way i see fit! so keep trucking girl cause you're an inspiration!

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  12. Hi Nicole,

    Thank you for this post... This has encouraged me alot. Alot of times, I thought that I'm not normal because I don't like working for people and I get bored very easily. 4 months ago, everyone think that I'm nuts to give up a good paying job, sell off my car & travel to UK... I guess I'm not alone! :)

    btw, I miss Thai massages.. :(

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  13. well said. im always worried about how my future wud turn out. theres always pressure from peers and parents u know, they always ask u what and where u wanna be in life. and most people expect you to succeed well in life. stuff like get a good paying job, by a certain age, ur life shud be secured and all that. i have friends who are geniuses and im pretty certain that they will life the life in the future. i guess im not like that. im more like u :) and i think thats cool. but still the sucky part is that im a guy, and since a guy shud be the provider in life, i cant be as free as u are. enlighten me!

    btw id love to travel thailand with u. when u goin again?

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  14. i truly think this was your best posting so far.........

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  15. i truly think this was your best posting so far.........

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  16. I think you dont realise what it is not to plan for the future. What about EPFs and having your own place? You think you are earning enough now but if you think about it, someone your age could be earning more and is nore stable than you....you will regret it.

    That is life.

    In the meantime, enjoy what you can.

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  17. Hi Nicole, do what you want to do with your life, be where you want to be. Your life is great. It's not like you're wasting it, you're living it to the full. It's not like you're just spending money without making any, you are. I don't see why you shouldn't travel and living your life the way you want it. You're having a great life!

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  18. Both working with and under someone is a difficult art to master. Quite of envy you cause you always work alone.

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  19. Life is always beautiful even if you think it is not. Because why? Life is meaningless without us questioning ourselves these questions.
    1. Where do we come from?
    (Do we know that we would be borned into this world before we were created in our mother's womb?)
    2. Where are we heading to?
    ( Do we actually know when are we going to die? - we are all mortal - remember this)
    3. Where is our final abode?
    (This is our final destination. this place is what we should be looking and seeking for as we are going to be there forever - eternity)
    * In conclusion, by seeking the answers for the above questions, and make sure that the answers are 10000% correct, then only we will know that the world is really beautiful and full of meaning for everybody.

    Tips for the answer: We have to keep asking and finding who we are by reading books, observing the creation of this world and last but not least WHO CREATED HUMAN ?
    It is a combination of 2 elements ( Body and Soul i.e physical and spiritual )

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  20. Meaningful article! really like it,

    It makes people think and think and again think what this life is all about. It is about being who we are, what we feel, how we understand this Testing Ground(World) which is created by GOD the only one. This HUMAN CREATION is marvellous, no one in this world would be around today without our Creator invented us in the first place ( a simple analogy = there won't be any cars in this world if there was no invention on cars).

    FOR EXAMPLE, if a car break downs, automatically, we need to find someone who are with the right knowledge and capabilty to repair it. If any Tom, Dick and Harry with no knowlegde in repairing cars thinks that he could repair it, definitely he won't be able to do it. BUT, if he follows the instruction manuals for repairing the car accordingly, he may have the chance to get the car back in its original state, BUT IT IS NOT GUARANTEED. BUT, if someone with a first hand knowledge in repairing the said car and has master the instruction manuals of reparing the car, he would know how to diagnose the problem with the car and how to get the car repaired in the CORRECT way.

    BUT , if the INVENTOR of the car, who has the TOTAL KNOWLEDGE of the CAR he INVENTED, it is NO DOUBT that he would DEFINETeLY knows HOW TO REPAIR THE CAR without further aggravating the conditions of other parts of the care. HE Knows EVERTHING about the functions of the car, its connections between its parts, how the system runs, how the systems actually coordinated and balanced to achieve maximum performance, and WHAT is the LIMIT of the car in terms of its functions , capabilities, etc.

    IT IS THE INVENTOR / CREATOR OF THE CAR WHO WOULD REALLY UNDERSTAND THE BEHAVIOUR OF THE CAR FULLY WOULD KNOW EVERY SINGLE BIT OF THE CAR AND ITS FUNCTION.

    BUt in the above case, it is impossible for the inventor himself/herself to get the broken down car repaired by him/her personally. THEREFORE, the inventor prepared the INSTRUCTION MANUALS FOR PEOPLE TO LEARN AND STUDY. until the instruction manuals are fully understood by the anyone, then he/she could only be able to perform the repairing work on the car.

    SAME GOES WITH OUR LIFE. GOD is our creator, therefore, HE ALSO HAS HIS OPERATING MANUALS FOR THE HUMAN BEINGS, (I.E: the scripture of GOD) which we should be be able to READ, UNDERSTAND, AND PRACTICE IT in our life. THEN , this world would be VERY VERY VERY meaningful for everyone. A simple problem could easily be cured BY FINDING ANSWERS from GOD's OPERATION MANUALS OF HUMAN BEING. Noboby and Nothing can be superior to GOD's Operating Manuals. If a DOCTOR tries to actually cure someone who is in ill health, the Doctor won't exactly knows the symptom of the illness, because WHY? because he is not the creator of Human Being. He is only the FACILITATOR.

    So FROM NOW ON, I GUess, We have to understand ourselves first before we understand others. Blame ourselves first before blaming others. TRY TO Understand how life is given to us, then only we would understand this life. IF WE IGNORE THIS UNDERSTANDING OF LIFE (THIS CREATION)WE WOULDN'T FEEL HAPPY /BLESSED INWARLY EVEN IF WE SEEMED TO BE HAPPY OUTWARDLY. That's where the connection between the physical part and the spiritual part of our body get into contact.

    THEREFORE OUTWARDLY, whether you are happy, rich, poor, sad, shy, pretty, ugly, ETC. , doesn't mean that INWARDLY you are the same.
    IT IS WRONG to associate the inward-self and outward-self in us completely. RICH people may seem to be rich Outwardly but INWARDLY he may be poor.

    GOD IS GREAT, He created Human Beings in such a way to test you.
    GOD KNOWS EVERYTHING ABOUT THE HUMAN BEINGS AS HE IS THE CREATOR.

    BUT
    HUMAN BEINGS could only see or observe the outward conditions behaviours of other human beings but
    INWARDLY he would not be able to know or judge the feelings of other human beings BECAUSE GOD DO NOT GIVE US THAT CAPABILITY. HE WANTED THE HUMAN BEINGS TO UNDERSTAND THEIR CREATOR FIRST, THEN ONLY THE HUMAN BEINGS COULD UNDERSTAND OTHER HUMAN BEINGS.

    IF everbody understand the reason why this world, the human beings , the ecological systems are created, the only HE WOULD BE ABLE TO UNDERSTAND THIS LIFE.

    BY UNDERSTANDING WHAT THIS LIFE IS ALL ABOUT, I'M SURE, DEFINITELY SURE THAT THE SICKNESS OF THE HEART, WHICH IS THE MOTHER OF ALL SICKNESS COULD BE CURED EASILY WITHOUT THE NEED OF A DOCTOR.

    THEN THIS LIFE WOULD BE A GREAT LIFE BEFORE WE COULD ACHIEVE ANOTHER GREAT LIFE IN THE HEREAFTER ( THE FINAL ABODE OF THE HUMAN BEINGS)

    WE SHOULD PONDER, THINK, UNDERSTAND THINGS WISELY IN ORDER TO ACHIEVE GREATNESS IN THIS THIS LIFE AND THE NEXT LIFE.

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