Sunday, March 11, 2007

如今的事

以下的:可能又是作者的虚拟


有史以来第一次觉得自己的感情有如粪土。不被珍惜,连怜惜的价值都没有。与其让你知道,早知就不表露自己的心意。被别人踩在脚底下的滋味,我已慢慢的习惯。

等待,有如活在人间地狱,纠缠的折腾令我难以呼吸。就那么一刻,我希望一切能静止。我不想感觉,因我只感觉到痛;我不想想,想的都是你悲伤的背影;我不想看,我眼里已容不下第二个人;我不想听,你的声音会令我心疼的想死。能拯救我的,由始至终你很明白这角色非你莫属。你的沉静,已是对我最残忍的折磨。

每次与你说话,我的感触变特别深,灵感特别多。写出来的都是一群稀里哗啦的废话。别人还以为我中了风,突然那么爱忧郁起来,写的文章也特别的伤感。也不知我是天才,还是笨蛋。

你明白为何我时常强颜欢笑吗?因为我不想让你看到我的伤,怕你不再与我说话。心里有数不清的问题,时时刻刻都情不自禁的想透露给你听。可是,我没必要问你,你表明得很清楚,我无需再让自己伤心一次。原谅我,我不是不想说,请让我留下这小小的自尊;我很痛,真得很痛。

开始喜欢静,喜欢夜晚,喜欢一个人听音乐。自闭也好,自暴自弃也好,我就是喜欢;因为,这是我唯一能与你在心里一起度过的时刻。。。

11 comments:

  1. 缘分未到,不能强求。缘分到了,逃也逃不掉!

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  2. 我和你一樣﹐愛上不應該愛上的人。
    也習慣了黑夜帶給我的寧靜和失落感。

    只是想跟你說﹐
    世界上絕對不只有你這麼一個孤單的人﹐
    也許在世界的某個角落﹐
    有個一樣孤單的男人等著 (不是指我自己啦﹐我是女生)

    self pity, like extravagance,
    is an indulgence.

    maybe its time to wake up and smell the roses =D

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  3. hm... if only i knew wat to comment

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  4. aiyo... bao bei... dun be so sad la... i wanna cry di... sob sob; cos... i'm lonely enuff... keke

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  5. its so sad Nicole! I can 'feel' your sadness. Life is not always fair. You're a good person, I am sure you will meet someone who is caring, cute and cuddly (3Cs).

    You have to move on, let it remain a good memory of both of you. You're a strong girl, you always get what you want.

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  6. so emotional......

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  7. Hi leng lui.....how are u???

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  8. sometimes, it's good to say out whatever kept inside your heart to someone who u really wish to share with.. of course if possible ... to the right person and to the one u wish to tell (him or her) and u will never know what will appear to the result of that....remember this.. as i told u many times, 想爱就要学会放手,不然再多努力也没有用。。 敢爱就要敢倾诉, 敢面对。你永远不可能会知道结果若你不去追求。表白后,至少你不觉得遗憾和对得起自己。and most of the time, the one might say out something that u feel it's against what u think and bcos of that u face-on and act happily. That shouldnt be the case and is not the right decision.

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  9. can someone translate pls ...=(

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  10. ohyeahmoreyeah14/3/07 12:23 AM

    wha-... i can only read "ren".
    thank u kindergarden.

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  11. Nic, life is short, must learn to enjoy everyday to the fullest. Stay happy.

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