Friday, March 09, 2007

事到如今

以下的:部分可能是作者的虚拟


知道彼此的不可能,却又放不下这种暧昧;就有如爱上一个不回头的人如此般无奈。我矛盾的希望,同时不期望任何可能性的发生。

事过多年,我终于明白得不到回应的爱是那么的痛苦,那无形中的折磨,会比想象中的更吃心。回想当初,这或许是我的报应。我顿时对不起以前我不能回报的感情。就因为我了解了,更明僚我们之间的不可能;因为我曾经站在你的地位看过自己。

你说你没有爱人的能力,没爱人的本事。而我,已分不清何谓一时,何谓感情。你说我们不适合,我只能了解感情来时,它没吩咐过我我会喜欢上一个我不可能喜欢的男人。点点滴滴的话题,无时无刻令我想起过去对别人说过的话;真可笑,可笑得令人想哭泣。为何天爱嘲弄人,角色好像对换了,没想过自己会有听到这些话的一天。

别对我温柔,这样我会不知如何是好。别对我体贴,你要我如何学习去放弃。更别说你喜欢我,你给我的期望,比你想象中的更难以消磨。我在你面前,会变得懦弱,变得渺小。只要你要,我会如你掌上的遥控器,可以那么容易的随你操控。你不明,因为你不是我;而我,只能期望你能回头看我的那一天。

人生中有许多遗憾,我多么希望,这不是其中一个。

17 comments:

  1. I am B L U R......!

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  2. impressive!...i mean your chinese, as good as english.

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  3. if this is for real, move on, and remember those sweet memories. someone better would eventually come by. ;)

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  4. 唉...我也经历够类似的...庆幸我终于放手...

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  5. Wow, you never told me you have so many problems ... you better share more, i am a good listener.

    Hung

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  6. Your Chinese and English is equally 'keng'! I am so impressed!

    And...I can feel your sadness...makes me wanna cry...

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  7. love hurts....but remember, this is only one part of your life.

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  9. eh.... don dwell on the past and look forth. I wonder if i interpreted ur entry correctly with google translator.

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  10. 23岁了,还像个小孩子。太好命了。 :S 人生本来就是这样, 天要下雨娘要嫁人, 轮不到我们控制的。 一切随缘,欢喜就好。

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  11. Here I am, having to utilize google translator again. Willar, we should seriously consider taking up mandarin classes. LOL.

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  12. All I can say is that the very 'something' that you can't get, is always the best; the what 'if'image would just simply shape that particular person to be the best in your mind. Not sure if this makes any sense... just what I feel ;). Anyway, if you do 'get' that someone... he may not be that special anymore; till you loses him again.
    Move on to a new chapter. Sad memories will become good ones when you accept, let go and walk along :)

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  13. aahh. been a long time since i've visited yr blog. happy belated bday, nicole.. ermm.. i used google translate on yr text, but couldnt exactly make out what u were writing about. it is about sum'n in yr past? first love? anyways, hope u'll find anuther man that will appreciate u for the incredible, amazing person that u r. cheers~!

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  14. Someone whom u hate10/3/07 3:41 AM

    Looking at what u wrote made me felt disgusted.

    U kept blogging bout your love for that particular guy but so far what have u done to salvage that relationship?

    PRACTICALLY NOTHING!!!

    Remember, actions speak louder than words. That's all i've gotta say.

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  15. "少年不识愁滋味,为赋新词强说愁"
    heard of this before? You still young honey, still have long way to go, Star still shine and earth still move. Let bygone bygone and look ahead the bright future ahead.

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  16. If you are like a remote control on my hand, can I press your nose to change Astro channels? :P

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  17. Oi Kenny, you should not press on the nose la... You know where you should be pressing, you know...

    Damnit, we're assholes.

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