I'm a free thinker. I have my own beliefs, and I believe there is a third being that created the world and everything we are. I call him god. He is neither Jesus, Buddha, nor Alah. He is just god. There is no other name I would call him.
Since young, I believe I am gifted, blessed and loved tremendously. I believe I am different and god might have loved me a little bit more. Everything in my life has been well laid, they're not exactly smooth sailing, but I would say I grew up pretty easily, despite the horrible depression age I went through in primary and highschool. However, I have yet to meet a bad person in my life, I still have both my parents who love me unconditionally, and I have a brother who gave me handphone (hey it's a big thing coming from him), and amazing friends who are endearing and caring. :D
When I was in school, people didn't understand me, simply because I'm weird. I think differently, act differently. I had aweful results in primary and teachers hated me because I was tall, ugly and stupid. In high school, I was unpopular, a nerd with glasses with no sex appeal; boys made fun of me and I was anti-social. I have wild imaginations, and I have wild dreams; everyone thought I was too far in the clouds. My mom thinks so too. But then again, isn't life itself a dream? :)
I have always preached to my friends that everything happens for a reason. And I believe strongly in it. Because you see, I think that god loves me a little too much to let me go through life difficultly. Many things that appear to be obstacles in life are his little ways of protecting me from greater harms. For example. if I were to choose between two decisions, god has ways to show me signs to decide which is the better option for me; like a cancelled interview, or falling sick, or even a late confirmation. If it rains I can't go out, it would be mean that I'm not meant to go out, it could be an accident that might happen to me, or a party that would turn out terrible due to the rain.
But sometimes, god loves me in ways I don't understand. Like today, I'm supposed to board a flight from Shenzhen to KK, and then take another plane from KK to KL. And all of a sudden, I got a message from Airasia informing me that the flight was cancelled due to typhoon somewhere near KK. I was swearing halfway on the bus from Shenzhen-Hongkong border to the airport.
You see, I got the sms before I board the bus in Guangzhou, I didn't check my phone and arrive in Shenzhen safely, boarded another bus to Shenzhen airport. It was only when I was arriving at Shenzhen airport that I saw the text. This meant that not only I travelled all the way to Shenzhen for nothing, my flight from KK to KL will be missed and forfeited. Wasting time, and money.
Upon arriving at the airport, I went to the Airasia office to enquire other alternative. Apparently, they are willing to reimburse another flight ticket, either at a later date, or to another location other than KK. So now, I am waiting in starbucks for my flight to KL tonight at 8:45pm.
Which is great! That means I don't need to change flights at KK and will be heading to KL directly! Even though that also means I have to sit in Starbucks for 8 hours.
When I looked back, I realised that not checking my phone and missing the sms by 3 hours was actually a good thing. Because if I were to see that sms while in Guangzhou, I wouldn't have left Guangzhou (and might book another flight from Guangzhou airport to KL that will cost me an arm and a leg). Now, not only I can get avoid a typhoon, save the extra journey, I will be sitting in starbucks having the time to finish my long forgotten paper.
It's funny, cause I was pretty stressed out and frustrated and swearing and cursing. And god has put me through all those emotional roller coaster before revealing the good news to me.
I love my life, and I'm happy of the things are running right now. Because no matter what happens in the future, I know I'm well taken care for. And by taking a step back to look at life, you'll discover, it's not that difficult to understand life afterall. :)