Sometimes in order to get something out of your system when one has too much to think and has run out of reason to be saint, one will go to the extreme to be isolated.
No, I am not going to run away to another country, that isn’t necessary.
In this world, it’s easy. Very easy to feel that way. Too easy in fact.
Can you guess? Come on, try to guess it. It’s too easy.
Just switch off your phone and internet line.
No one will be able to get you. No one will even try. Sure… I have friends who know where I stay; sure… they can find me at my house. But will they?
We are so used to having technological communication around with us; we took for granted how communication has evolved to make it too easy for us and underestimated the pervasiveness of these devices in our lives.
To an extend that we would call before we go to a place, call before we meet up, call to make sure if a date is still on. And if the call is not reached, we just assume they’re not there. Longer than a few hours/days, we will try to go online and look for that person, and if he/she is not there. We just wait…. Till they appear. Lame isn’t it? How retarded human have set themselves to be now. Well, at least in this part of the technophile world.
5th February 8pm, I decided to put myself to the test. I switched off my phone, and set my MSN and Yahoo to offline mode.
Following are the records of my schedule onwards,
11pm: Keep wondering if anyone has called? sms?
This is my phone
1:15am: Look at my phone, flip open, almost tempted to switch it on and off just to see if anyone text me. But manage to refrain myself from it
1:22am: Decide to browse the internet, trying not to talk to anyone
1:24am: Shove my mobile phone under the bed, you can’t miss what you can’t see
1:31am: Looking blankly at word document as I type this shit out, thinking how long I can last~
3:25am: Sign off from MSN and Yahoo, so I don’t get messages from people telling me I am blocking them instead of appearing offline
I try not to lie so I signed off. Appearing offline is sort of a lie telling everyone you are not there when actually you are right? Don’t you just hate liars? I dislike liars too. Especially people who ‘put airplane’ (Chinese translation of bailing out, say, from a vacation trip 5 days prior to departure after god knows how many blank promises, that sort of disappointment is enough to send you into depression), yup, that is a form of lie too. Wait, I’m getting out of topic here.
3:50am: Turn on Astro to watch some movies. Did you know they play really cool movies in the night?
5:32am: Got tired of lame old movies, decide to head to bed early today
6:15am: Couldn’t sleep, wake up and walk to kitchen for milk
6:30am: Watch Animal Planet with dad in the living room
6:40am: Make soup with microwave for breakfast
7:05am: Wear my jumper, grab ipod, goes out for a jog in the forest
morning view from my house front yard
8:29am: Reach home, realize how beautiful the forest looks early in the morning again
9:00am: Fill bathtub with hot water, take bubble bath
Bring ipod to bathroom and set up incense in the bedroom.
10:50am: 15 minutes of facial, 30 minutes of blow drying & straightening hair (out of the blue) later, it’s time for bed.
5:22pm: Wake up, had a lot of nightmares, wasn’t a pleasant sleep, huge urge to open phone
6:45pm: Take light dinner, sleep again
9:20pm: Wake up, I think I am entering depression
10:08pm: Should be studying, but my eyes are getting blur for looking at the screen too long; waiting blankly, mind empty, more than 24 hours have passed, when should I stop? I didn’t really set a time limit, did I? Now that’s one idiotic thing to do. Should I switch it on now? So to stop my agony? I feel like a walking zombie already… didn’t talk to anyone, maybe only a few words every now and then, but not in actual voice, didn’t even talk to my mom (she would think I’m crazy).
To be continued…