I just wrote an entire entry, but decided not to post it in the end.
There are things better left be unsaid and unshared.
May I clarify I have never once mention I am in any way good looking or pretty.
To me, I am me. Just me. A compulsive traveller who can never get enough of travelling. These two weeks, I'm taking a break, not because I have finally taken a toll, but because I need to prepare myself for a travel schedule that is beyond imaginary to come.
I am fat. There I said it, again and again. To people who thinks so, you are right. I never once deny I am fat. So fat I should be put in jail and sentence to death. To people who object, thanks but accept it. This is not America or the UK. This is Asia, where being skinny is a trend. Where being underweight is considered normal, acceptable; and being normal is fat. Where obese people should be killed than be seen walking down the street.
Where being anorexia is better than being called 'fat'.
Sad but true.
I have said that I will dedicate myself to do something exceptionally stupid every month or so. Simply because I am Nicole.
This month stupid thing is simple. I will not harm any fries, nor children of the third world. But instead, to punish myself for being myself, or for being fat, or for being selfish, or for being _____. (fill in the blank)
I will go on a 7 day fast as of today, to redeem myself? To lose 10 pounds? To torture myself? To inflict bowel injury on myself in order to distract self from other negative influence such as depression and stress?
Well, maybe a bit of all of the above. Medidation, a journey through seeking oneself. Whatever..
The only thing that is allowed, is water; and maybe soya or milk during sunset. That's it. At least I won't be overally malnutrition. I think.
If I stop blogging after 7 days, call 999.
There are things better left be unsaid and unshared.
May I clarify I have never once mention I am in any way good looking or pretty.
To me, I am me. Just me. A compulsive traveller who can never get enough of travelling. These two weeks, I'm taking a break, not because I have finally taken a toll, but because I need to prepare myself for a travel schedule that is beyond imaginary to come.
I am fat. There I said it, again and again. To people who thinks so, you are right. I never once deny I am fat. So fat I should be put in jail and sentence to death. To people who object, thanks but accept it. This is not America or the UK. This is Asia, where being skinny is a trend. Where being underweight is considered normal, acceptable; and being normal is fat. Where obese people should be killed than be seen walking down the street.
Where being anorexia is better than being called 'fat'.
Sad but true.
I have said that I will dedicate myself to do something exceptionally stupid every month or so. Simply because I am Nicole.
This month stupid thing is simple. I will not harm any fries, nor children of the third world. But instead, to punish myself for being myself, or for being fat, or for being selfish, or for being _____. (fill in the blank)
I will go on a 7 day fast as of today, to redeem myself? To lose 10 pounds? To torture myself? To inflict bowel injury on myself in order to distract self from other negative influence such as depression and stress?
Well, maybe a bit of all of the above. Medidation, a journey through seeking oneself. Whatever..
The only thing that is allowed, is water; and maybe soya or milk during sunset. That's it. At least I won't be overally malnutrition. I think.
If I stop blogging after 7 days, call 999.
Wrote by Nicole
