Desperate times call for desperate measures. With reasons provided, I want to (NEED TO, no, HAVE TO!!!) go on a serious diet - any way to shed four healthy kilos in two weeks? And bloody timing it is to hit me with water

Musing:It's ironic that when you are trying desperately to get drunk, you'd seem to have a great tolerance for alcohol and no matter how many rounds of vodka and cocktails you have downed, you can't seem to reach the stage whereby you can't

I have long known for my amazingly crazily insanely menacingly freakishly long hair. For as long as I can remember, I have long hair. I pretty much have long hair my entire life, if someone have seen me in short hair before, he/she

Musing: 人是不是应该要学习放松过人生？是不是不应该事事都那么执著？还是我们都被社会的种种拘束束缚着，所以很多事都不能不由得它去？If life was meant to live to the fullest, why do so many of us give so many reasons so many times to stop ourselves to live the way we want? Why do we chose to give so many things up?Almost two

Note: This is an Ah Lian post, with Ah Beng Language (Translation for foreign readers: This is a post with heavy Malaysian slang, a mixture of English, Mandarin, Malay and a hint of Cantonese and Hokkien vulgarities)Ai yo, I tell you... Recently damn

Ai yo~~~ so many people complained they can't read mandarin. Ok la... here, write some english words for you to see. Hahahaha....Don't say I'm mean and inconsiderate o~~*~*~*~*~*~*~Planning to have a pot luck gathering this saturday. Yo Melaka ppl out there, who wanna

以下的：可能又是作者的虚拟有史以来第一次觉得自己的感情有如粪土。不被珍惜，连怜惜的价值都没有。与其让你知道，早知就不表露自己的心意。被别人踩在脚底下的滋味，我已慢慢的习惯。等待，有如活在人间地狱，纠缠的折腾令我难以呼吸。就那么一刻，我希望一切能静止。我不想感觉，因我只感觉到痛；我不想想，想的都是你悲伤的背影；我不想看，我眼里已容不下第二个人；我不想听，你的声音会令我心疼的想死。能拯救我的，由始至终你很明白这角色非你莫属。你的沉静，已是对我最残忍的折磨。每次与你说话，我的感触变特别深，灵感特别多。写出来的都是一群稀里哗啦的废话。别人还以为我中了风，突然那么爱忧郁起来，写的文章也特别的伤感。也不知我是天才，还是笨蛋。你明白为何我时常强颜欢笑吗？因为我不想让你看到我的伤，怕你不再与我说话。心里有数不清的问题，时时刻刻都情不自禁的想透露给你听。可是，我没必要问你，你表明得很清楚，我无需再让自己伤心一次。原谅我，我不是不想说，请让我留下这小小的自尊；我很痛，真得很痛。 开始喜欢静，喜欢夜晚，喜欢一个人听音乐。自闭也好，自暴自弃也好，我就是喜欢；因为，这是我唯一能与你在心里一起度过的时刻。。。

以下的：部分可能是作者的虚拟知道彼此的不可能，却又放不下这种暧昧；就有如爱上一个不回头的人如此般无奈。我矛盾的希望，同时不期望任何可能性的发生。事过多年，我终于明白得不到回应的爱是那么的痛苦，那无形中的折磨，会比想象中的更吃心。回想当初，这或许是我的报应。我顿时对不起以前我不能回报的感情。就因为我了解了，更明僚我们之间的不可能；因为我曾经站在你的地位看过自己。你说你没有爱人的能力，没爱人的本事。而我，已分不清何谓一时，何谓感情。你说我们不适合，我只能了解感情来时，它没吩咐过我我会喜欢上一个我不可能喜欢的男人。点点滴滴的话题，无时无刻令我想起过去对别人说过的话；真可笑，可笑得令人想哭泣。为何天爱嘲弄人，角色好像对换了，没想过自己会有听到这些话的一天。别对我温柔，这样我会不知如何是好。别对我体贴，你要我如何学习去放弃。更别说你喜欢我，你给我的期望，比你想象中的更难以消磨。我在你面前，会变得懦弱，变得渺小。只要你要，我会如你掌上的遥控器，可以那么容易的随你操控。你不明，因为你不是我；而我，只能期望你能回头看我的那一天。人生中有许多遗憾，我多么希望，这不是其中一个。

Life is passing by so fast, all I remember was being 21 yesterday in KL and 19 two days ago in England. It’s so fast it’s freaking me out, daunting even.Four years later from two days ago, I’m still a student and still